21 weeks

Wore a tight dress to work on Friday, and got a couple of weird looks in the stomach region. Still think people are wondering if I'm just getting fat. Sigh.

I am putting a freeze on the baby clothes purchasing. It's getting out of control guys. But they're just so cute! This kid may or may not already have a better closet than me: Missoni. Ralph Lauren. Catherine Malandrino. Burberry. (Not paying retail, but still.) Stop the madness!!

Also madness? The baby kicks. They are more frequent now and it's both the weirdest and coolest thing ever. Going to try to record my stomach moving at some point. Because that is BEYOND trippy.

Yoga Baby

Saw Bubbles today for my 20 week sonogram - everything looks great, including her flexibility. Y'all - her legs are literally over her head!

Impressive stuff, little lady.

Also had a dream last night that I had a baby. It was a boy, so not THIS baby, but it was awesome. I woke up so happy. I have had previous dreams where I lose the baby and even one where the baby was all of a sudden 3 and I was wondering why I didn't get the infant period, but this was the first one where I had a tiny baby and things were going swimmingly. Here's hoping it was a preview of things to come...

Personal growth

Big milestones this week - felt the baby kick (unless that was gas, but it's happened enough that I choose to believe it's kicking), and had to unbutton my damn pants at work. Ha.

The truth is out there, but I don't think I want to know

"Babymoon" was fun, although no one could really tell I was pregnant so I didn't go announcing it to the world. I'm almost 20 weeks - halfway there! - but I am still so freaking nervous about something going wrong. I guess because every time I open up Facebook there's a tragic story about loss. From Vienna (Bachelor) losing her twins to the woman who accidentally smothered her baby in the hospital - I can't win! Plus the horrific things I find when I Google. I was itchy when I got back from the trip - most likely because I managed to get super sunburned (whoops) and was about to peel - but I Googled it and learned it could be a liver problem which leads to stillbirths. DEAR GOD. I just had an itch.

So moral of the story: I might just have to go Amish for the next five months and y'all can fill me in on everything I missed. The good stuff, please. Not the horrible nightmare-inducing stuff. Thanks.

Scaling up

So had a doctor's apt today. I basically have two per month - one at the high-risk clinic where I get the cool sonogram and DVD, and the one today at my OB's office, where they take my blood pressure, weight and find the baby's heartbeat, then send me on my merry way. I also have to meet different doctors each time, since there are 7 who could possibly deliver my baby and one who I went to middle school and high school with who I have been avoiding. Not that he's a bad doctor. But it's just a little...oogy.

A month ago, I was down 2.5 pounds from my first visit. And this time I gained 4. Which puts me at a net gain of one-two pounds total at nearly 18 weeks. But considering I lost weight during the first trimester, I have really gained about 10. And I did eat an entire pizza Friday night. Not gonna lie, kinda proud of that. Dessert? I mean, if I must. #doctorsorders