O for 2

Well, crap. Went in for the ultrasound today and they found nothing. Nada. Zilch. No baby. No heartbeat. I'm a little surprised - my numbers were way better this time, and last time I was at least able to see the baby and a heartbeat. Back to square one. I have to wait to miscarry again, and then they want to run some tests to see if it's something I'M doing that's keeping this from working. The doctor was encouraging that this will work again, but it's so emotionally and financially draining I just don't know what to do next. Have an appt with a local adoption agency next week, just to keep my options open. This absolutely SUCKS.