21 weeks

Wore a tight dress to work on Friday, and got a couple of weird looks in the stomach region. Still think people are wondering if I'm just getting fat. Sigh.

I am putting a freeze on the baby clothes purchasing. It's getting out of control guys. But they're just so cute! This kid may or may not already have a better closet than me: Missoni. Ralph Lauren. Catherine Malandrino. Burberry. (Not paying retail, but still.) Stop the madness!!

Also madness? The baby kicks. They are more frequent now and it's both the weirdest and coolest thing ever. Going to try to record my stomach moving at some point. Because that is BEYOND trippy.

Yoga Baby

Saw Bubbles today for my 20 week sonogram - everything looks great, including her flexibility. Y'all - her legs are literally over her head!

Impressive stuff, little lady.

Also had a dream last night that I had a baby. It was a boy, so not THIS baby, but it was awesome. I woke up so happy. I have had previous dreams where I lose the baby and even one where the baby was all of a sudden 3 and I was wondering why I didn't get the infant period, but this was the first one where I had a tiny baby and things were going swimmingly. Here's hoping it was a preview of things to come...

Personal growth

Big milestones this week - felt the baby kick (unless that was gas, but it's happened enough that I choose to believe it's kicking), and had to unbutton my damn pants at work. Ha.

The truth is out there, but I don't think I want to know

"Babymoon" was fun, although no one could really tell I was pregnant so I didn't go announcing it to the world. I'm almost 20 weeks - halfway there! - but I am still so freaking nervous about something going wrong. I guess because every time I open up Facebook there's a tragic story about loss. From Vienna (Bachelor) losing her twins to the woman who accidentally smothered her baby in the hospital - I can't win! Plus the horrific things I find when I Google. I was itchy when I got back from the trip - most likely because I managed to get super sunburned (whoops) and was about to peel - but I Googled it and learned it could be a liver problem which leads to stillbirths. DEAR GOD. I just had an itch.

So moral of the story: I might just have to go Amish for the next five months and y'all can fill me in on everything I missed. The good stuff, please. Not the horrible nightmare-inducing stuff. Thanks.

Scaling up

So had a doctor's apt today. I basically have two per month - one at the high-risk clinic where I get the cool sonogram and DVD, and the one today at my OB's office, where they take my blood pressure, weight and find the baby's heartbeat, then send me on my merry way. I also have to meet different doctors each time, since there are 7 who could possibly deliver my baby and one who I went to middle school and high school with who I have been avoiding. Not that he's a bad doctor. But it's just a little...oogy.

A month ago, I was down 2.5 pounds from my first visit. And this time I gained 4. Which puts me at a net gain of one-two pounds total at nearly 18 weeks. But considering I lost weight during the first trimester, I have really gained about 10. And I did eat an entire pizza Friday night. Not gonna lie, kinda proud of that. Dessert? I mean, if I must. #doctorsorders

Pregnant Pause

So I was all excited yesterday - my friend and I bought Groupons to Spa Castle, a Korean bath-house type place with all these pools and baths. Totally what you need when it's over 100 degrees outside. But to my dismay, we drove all the way out there to learn that all of the pools were saunas and I couldn't use any of them. Boo. (Besides - who wants a hot tub when it's 100 outside??) By the time I can actually go, the Groupon will be expired. Can't believe I didn't even think about that being a possibility. #momfail

17 weeks but who's counting (I am)

Had my monthly sonogram on Wednesday and got to see Bubbles again! She has doubled in size in just two weeks - gone from 3 ounces to 7 (and I think at this point she's supposed to be 5, so she's tipping the scales)! I am so convinced every time they look at her brain, heart etc. that something is going to be wrong, but the doctor said everything just looks great. She has little leg bones - although I probably won't feel her kicks for another few weeks since my placenta is in the front - and I saw her kidneys and her spine and the four chambers of her heart and her little toes and balled up fists. COME ON PEOPLE. I am finally back to my starting weight, so we'll see what my doctor says next week when I have to get on the scale. No one can really tell I'm pregnant yet (boo), but the bump looks HUGE to me. So there's that.